Ready for Take Off

It’s been 6 months since I was accepted into Remote Year and 2 months since I left my nurse practitioner position and studio apartment in NYC.  I’ve had a lot of time to celebrate, think, prepare, worry, celebrate, say goodbyes, over think, plan, over think some more, and say even more goodbyes, yet it still doesn’t feel real.  As I write, I’m aboard a plane from Boston to San Francisco, which will then take me to Hong Kong, Singapore, and ultimately Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia where I will join 64 strangers and 2 program leaders to embark on what will ultimately be the yearlong adventure of a lifetime.  I get the sense that once I land in Kuala Lumpur that ‘what the F*** am I about to do!?’ feeling will wash over me and minor panic attacks will temporarily set in.  A year of around the world travel SOUNDS glamorous, but will undoubtedly be fraught with obstacles, challenges, and probably even some disappointments.  I fear financial instability and other entrepreneurial struggles and loneliness as I work to establish meaningful connections with the new people in my life while missing those I love at home who are 13+ time zones away.  And I wonder if I will live up to the expectations of those in the Remote Year Program- what the hell makes me so unique that I was selected from a pool of 300,000 applicants?  There were a lot of journaling, running and yoga sessions to work through these reservations…

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